At A Crossroads, Part 1: The Future of Me and Weight Watchers

My Future with Weight WatchersOh, hey there! Remember me? Is anyone still around? Well, if anyone is reading this, I’m still alive! If you’ve been around before, you’ve likely noticed several “hiatuses” where I went off the social grid. This time around, it’s been almost 5 months since my last post… the longest yet. I’ve wanted to write a number of times, and then for a long time, I just didn’t want to write a thing.

If you’re new here, and want to know a little more about my journey, let me give you a synopsis, as my “About” page is long and outdated… it needs a good-time cleaning up. So here’s the shortest story I can come up with:

1. I lost about 75 lbs with Weight Watchers Online.
2. I reached goal weight in 2012. I was in a Weight Watchers commercial. Life was good.
3. I struggled to maintain such a low goal weight. Life got hard again.
4. I gained about half of the weight back. I’m struggle to find the motivation I once had.

And there it is. That is why I stopped blogging so much this year. I was a success, and then… I wasn’t. I didn’t want to talk about it anymore… I didn’t want to do it anymore, and who wanted to hear about that?

So if I’m still struggling, you might be wondering why I am back here talking about it? Well, of course you know, it’s that “New Year” time when you re-evaluate your life. And here I am. Life is better, but I am still dealing with financial woes. My health is still better than it was, but it won’t continue this way and could be better. Even what I am doing in my life as far as relationships, hobbies, activities, etc. is changing.

So I’m my first crossroad…. To quit or not to quit Weight Watchers.

Did I just hear somebody gasp? I know many people arrive here because you’ve searched for Weight Watchers blogs, so I hate to say I might leave it behind, but if nothing else, I always keep it real, and my readers have always appreciated that. So here’s what’s going on in this crazy little head of mine…

Reasons why I am considering quitting:

1. I’m sick of tracking. I just don’t want to do it anymore. And I don’t want to do it forever!

2. It costs money. I need to make some budgetary cuts. I know, it’s not a lot of money, but it adds up.

3. I’m not single. Are you confused? Well, I was single the entire time I lost that 75 lbs. I had complete control over what food I wanted and how it was made, or even what restaurants to go to, which made tracking a breeze. Since then, it hasn’t mattered who I’m in a relationship with because everyone has different ideas about what is healthy and have different tastes in food, etc. This makes choosing meals and tracking difficult. And I’m not about to chose a life of solitude to be skinny! lol Ok, I know there are plenty of people in relationships who make this work, but my theory is that most of them are married or living together and usually the woman does the cooking!

4. It’s not working now. I have continued to pay Weight Watchers since I started steadily gaining weight back in August 2013. I “start over” time and again and just can’t seem to stick with it past a few days, sometimes not even a day. I’ve even spent weeks where I completely give up and eat whatever I want. It’s as if it is not the right plan for me anymore.

5. Maybe I need something new. Sometimes a change in routine can jump start people. I’ve seen many people start out on Weight Watchers and move on to other ways of managing their weight, why not me?

Reasons why I am hesitant to quit:

1. It worked before! I’ve lost smaller amounts of weight in my life on other plans, and always gained it back, but this was the one and only that worked to drop 75 lbs when I didn’t think I was ever going to do it. AND it offers a great way to manage splurges and real life! And I haven’t gained ALL of it back this time. Why can’t I make it work again?

2. I’m afraid to let go. Kind of silly, but it’s like my baby. I have yet to cancel my membership, even when I’m not doing it! It’s like I feel like I am giving up if I quit, or if I lose it again another way, it’s like my Weight Watchers success story will be a joke. Ok, I know this is irrational, but does anyone get how I am feeling? Add in that “change” is a scary thing.

3. I don’t want to use MyFitnessPal. You were probably going to suggest that as a free alternative, huh? I actually used it before in conjunction with Weight Watchers here and there to see where I was calorie-wise and nutrient-wise, but it all boils down to this. I. DON’T. WANT. TO. TRACK. ANYTHING.

4. If I have to track something, I want the online tools. I’m sure I could do the program without paying because I know it so well, but then I won’t have the handy-dandy point tracker and app, I can’t easily look up points values of food, I can’t scan foods in the grocery store, I can’t use the recipe builder. Sure I can find sub-par alternatives, but they will be time consuming and frustrating.

So what am I going to do if I don’t do Weight Watchers? I’m not exactly sure. I thinking about sort of a modified version of what I know from Weight Watchers. For the most part, I ate good during the week, mostly under points, and splurged during the weekend. Can I do it without tracking it? I don’t know. But as you can see, I still haven’t made my decision. I’m paid up with Weight Watchers for a few more weeks, and with my usual weigh in day coming up tomorrow, and being so off track for so many weeks, I’m gonna give it a go and see if I think it’s worth it to continue.

In the meantime, what do you think? Have any advice for me?

(Photo attribution: Long Road Ahead by Dave Meier (under Creative Commons), edited with Canva)

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Weigh In Wednesday: Do Over!

Alexis {Diva on a Diet}'s Official Weight Watchers Weigh In August 6, 2014I remember yelling, “Do over!” many-a-time as a kid when games didn’t go my way. Well, I’m feeling about the same way right now. I’d like to do over this past week. The fact that I only gained 0.8 lbs is quite short of a miracle. I might even just call it luck! And here I am, back in the 160s. :(

First, this week started off with dinner and drinks with friends, which then continued for several nights with different friends, to the point where I couldn’t even remotely figure out what I had eaten to even track it. I gave up.

Second, I worked out one measly day this week. There was clearly no commitment to the six days I have been aiming for. And that one day I worked out, I forgot my ActiveLink, so I didn’t even get APs for it. Of course, not that it would matter after I gave up on tracking my food!

Third, I went off the social media grid for the most part because I didn’t want to tell anyone I was doing poorly or be accountable. I didn’t do the Meatless Monday and Friend Makin’ Monday posts I had planned because it would put me “out there” for people to ask how I was doing.

Do I have an excuse? Not really. I had friends in town that I hadn’t seen in forever. And I think I just got lazy again. And maybe a little sad again. And I just decided, oh well, have your damn week “off,” and you will eventually get back to it.

So let me think about what I did right for a minute. There’s gotta be something, right? 1) I didn’t screw up at every meal. 2) At least I worked out that one day. 3) I did actually eat meatless on Monday.

So there ya have it. Not much to write home about. Obviously, I can’t actually do over this week, like you can do over a round of Rock, Paper, Scissors, but I can just do my best to get back on plan this week. I’ll just keep tryin’…

~Weigh In Status: 35.7 lbs up from “goal” (you can see my entire weight loss log here.)~

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Weigh In Wednesday: Back in the 150s!

Alexis {Diva on a Diet}'s official weigh in July 30, 2014Well, ok. I’m back in the 150s by the skin of my teeth! The scale was literally teetering between 160 and 159.9…. and it finally settled on 159.9 lbs. Whew! Ok, so if you round it, then I am still in the 160s, but I don’t round. I take those tenths of a pound very seriously!

And really, it wasn’t much of a loss, but I shouldn’t have had a loss at all! I ended up being 64 points over for the week. There were one to many, make that more like three or four too many, poor choices this week. But what I think is key here is that I didn’t just give up on my whole week. That’s what I have been doing for ohhhh, almost a year now.

Which prompted me to look back on my charts. (I’m a total geek and love charts. It’s part of my job, so I guess it’s a good thing!) This time last year, I weighed 130.3 lbs. *sigh* Just a measly 5.3 lbs up from goal. It was in August that my weight started going up. By late October, I was over the healthy weight range, but I couldn’t get a hold of what was going on with me. By mid-December, I broke into the 150s. The months since then I have been going up and down in the 150s, but found myself in the 160s at the end of June.

So here I am, a year later, barely back in the 150s. I’m still not trying to focus on the scale, but it’s hard to do that! What I have noticed is that my body fat percentage that my scale measures is going down at a grater rate than my weight. That’s what I want to see!

So maybe I still lost weight this week because I have been committing to 6 days of activity when I had been doing hardly any for a month! That’s a big change for my body. I’m not trying to push myself though. I’m just trying to get it in. Even when I had bad days, I stuck to that commitment. And strangely, my activities were less intense than last week, but I ended up earning 2 more APs than last week. Perhaps I was better at moving around more during the day?

And maybe it’s because I am actually eating right for most of my meals, whereas the last month, I was eating wrong for every meal! Another big change for my body. But that’s not going to get and keep the weight off in the long run.

So this week, I hope to avoid making too many poor decisions and not be over points. I’m going to stick to my 6 days of activity. Which is going to be scary because today is my rest day, and it just seems weird starting off a week like that! But I have dinner plans right after work with a good friend who now lives far away, but happens to be in town. I likely won’t have time for a workout. So thank god for a rest day, really! I don’t have to guilt myself! And maybe, if I get home early enough, I can fit in a little walk. I’m sad I’ll miss #WWChat tonight, but it’s time with friends that make life fun. It’s called living. :)

Hope you all had a fantastic week! Lemme know how your journey is coming along!

~Weigh In Status: 34.9 lbs up from “goal” (you can see my entire weight loss log here.)~

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