Weigh In Wednesday: Weight Loss is a Funny Thing

Weigh-in Wednesday!So after a months of doing nothing, I only gained 0.7 lbs last week, but in a week of putting a concerted effort into eating better, tracking both points and calories, and working out, I gained 0.3 more lbs. It’s funny how this all works out.

No, actually, it’s not funny, it’s very frustrating. I feel like back in 2012, when I initially lost all that weight, this was a lot easier. I didn’t stall out around 165 lbs. Nope, I took a fairly straight downward path once I committed, and I was NEVER perfect, and the only frustration I recall is with the last 10 lbs. Now, it is much more difficult staying committed, and I often feel disappointed even when I try.

It makes me feel like what I am doing isn’t good enough. It makes me feel like I should be eating baked chicken and steamed veggies for every meal every day, never ever having a splurge ever, and working out at least four hours a day every day in place of any relaxation or social events. Knowing that will never happen, I feel defeated, like I am never going to get this weight off again. And I’m doing Jillian Michaels for god’s sake! She’s no joke! And I’m sore! I’m clearly not doing enough though. Perhaps I should be doing at least two DVDs and running 10 miles on top of it every single day! UUuuuuaaaarrrrrggggggggggggggghhhhh!!!!

So that’s mentally how I feel. I know it’s not realistic. I cannot let that stupid number on the scale get me down. Bottom line is that even if that number never moves, if I keep doing what I did this week, 1) I will be healthier, 2) I will be stronger, and 3) I am still worthy of love… all while allowing myself to enjoy some splurges and rest days. Those facts are easily pushed to the back of my brain when I see my fat roll hanging over my pants or think about going out in public in a bathing suit. Vanity has some pretty strong powers, doesn’t it? It’s time to work on my thinking, and keep on keepin’ on!

Height: 5′ 4″
Highest Weight: 201.1 lbs (6/1/2011)
Current Weight: 165.0 lbs
Change Since Last Weigh In: +0.3 lbs
Total Lost This Year: -8.0 lbs (since 3/23/2015)
All Time Total Lost: -36.1 lbs (since 6/1/2011)
(you can see my entire weight loss log here.)

  1. Flora, 22 July, 2015

    I can understand your frustration, but don’t let the scale get the best of you. Keep doing what you’re doing, and I’m sure you will see the results you want.

  2. Winter Benson, 22 July, 2015

    It’s hard not to let the little numbers get to you, in either direction. Either it’s not enough or it’s too much. I love that you know you’re worth the effort and know that you can. You got this!
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  3. Cassi, 23 July, 2015

    You ARE enough! What worked for you last time?
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  4. Anna, 23 July, 2015

    It’s like reading my mind. I don’t think I will ever understand our bodies’ wacky ways. Keep pushing forward :)

  5. Kerry @ Snark & Pepper, 23 July, 2015

    Have you played around with eating MORE? You’re working out so much, you may not be getting enough calories.

    That being said, I have been hovering around the same weight for months now so maybe I’m not a good person to be giving advice!
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  6. Deb, 26 July, 2015

    Definitely can’t live our life eating nothing but chicken and steamed veggies 😉 But you know that! Just remember that one week, month, heck, even a year is small in the grand scheme of things. You are doing the right things, your body (and weight) will figure it out :)

  7. Katy, 29 July, 2015

    Hi just happened across this article on Facebook and I thought you might find it interesting. I know that this happens to me ALL the time when I start a new fitness routine and it really made a lot of sense to me.

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