Well, here I am again, pretending to do a “weekly” update! When I went to enter my weight in the tracker, I was shocked to see that I hadn’t updated in 3 weeks!
So I’ll try to keep this concise and not turn it into a pity party (although I am not good at either of those!), but I’ve been fairly MIA (for like the millionth time!) for the past few weeks because crap keeps happening to me. I had that kick butt week back at the end of February when I lost 4.3 lbs, and then I started not feeling so hot. That’s an oxymoron or something because I was literally hot… my temperature was up to 103 degrees, and I thought I was gonna die! I got diagnosed with strep throat just a few days before my birthday. I spent most of my birthday weekend in bed, and then well, every one wanted to celebrate my birthday the weekend after, and I, of course, went into “who cares, it’s my birthday, and I’ve been sick” mode! I still managed to lose 0.1 lb that first week though. I didn’t eat much when I had the fever, and I did do some activity… not a whole lot though. And tracking?… Nada!
Oh yeah, and then my dryer broke. It’s still broken. My car is having problems. It still is. Did I mention I have financial problems right now because my mortgage went way up? That’s why they are still broken. Oh and no raise again this year at work. (*Insert sarcastic “woo hoo.”*) And yet again, I’m having more medical issues that I do not want to get into, though not life threatening, still annoying and depressing and well, expensive too! Add all that on top of still being sad about my break up and weight gain, and you have one unmotivated, unhappy camper.
So I gained 1.6 lbs the second week. So hey, at least I didn’t gain the whole 4.3 lbs I lost at the end of February. Then somehow this week, I lost 0.6 lbs. I know, at least it’s not a gain. And I have to admit, I was semi-active, but I didn’t track a damn bit of food again, I didn’t attempt to eat healthy for a good majority of those meals, and I earned very little activity points! And my 8K training?… Out the window! I’m pretty certain I’ll be walking most of it. Oh, did I mention it’s that TOM this week too? So yep, still not exactly a happy camper! It’s been really hard to pull myself up out of the muck. It’s like all the little things are adding up and weighing me down hard… literally. Small gains and small losses are all keeping me basically in the same place. Stuck.
So there you have it. That’s what’s been going on with me for the last few weeks. Looking at it realistically, hey, at least I haven’t gone over the 160 mark, and I’ve basically been maintaining around 155 since January. But that’s just it. It’s mid-March, and all I’ve been able to accomplish is maintaining this 30-ish lbs weight gain. Don’t even get me started on my horrifying body fat percentage!
So, in order to keep my chin up and stop being a Negative Nancy, I’m not going to sit here and complain to you anymore today! Let’s talk about what I plan on doing…
#1: I signed up for Heidi+Chris Powell SpringFling DietBet challenge last Tuesday. I felt that I needed to put my money where my mouth is… haha!… and since I don’t have a lot of it, I thought it would motivate me. Ok, so it didn’t work this past week, so it’s time to make the remaining 20 days count! It’s starting to sink in that I need to take action to win my money back! (Now FYI, I usually weigh in with clothes off at home, but you have to do your first official weigh in with your clothes on (since they have to verify your weigh in with a picture of you!), and the day I weighed in, I was the highest I’ve been in a while. So according to my naked weigh in today, DietBet says I’ve lost 3.3 lbs of the 6.4 lbs I have to lose, as my Withings wifi scale weight measurements update automatically to DietBet. We all know that’s won’t be quite right when the final weigh in is another picture in clothes! I think I need to weigh in with those clothes on right now, so I know exactly where I’m at!)
#2: So, seeing people comment about Chris Powell’s carb cycling in the DietBet challenge made me curious. You know he’s the guy from ABC’s Extreme Weight Loss? So I thought maybe that might be the change-up I needed in my eating. Sometimes I feel like I’m stuck in a rut. So I got his book Choose More, Lose More for Life to see what it’s all about and to see if I could work it into my Weight Watchers tracking. I’ve started reading the book, but I haven’t started the plan at all. In fact, I haven’t gotten far enough into it to get the full details yet! But it’s a start!
#3: I’m still going to dance classes. (Until I can’t afford it anymore! ) I plan on getting back out to run this week/weekend, whatever the mileage may be. I plan to nail those activity points like I did a few weeks ago! I’m trying to fit in Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30 too, but I’m not going to hold myself to this because I may just be taking on too much. Even Chris says you need to make small doable promises and keep them! I don’t want to set myself up for failure, right? So the only goal there is that I’m going to try to add it in!
#4: I need to wrap my brain around all the crappy things that are happening. You know, get my mental health together! Even the beginning of Chris’ book is asking questions of myself that I have got to address. He says, “Transformation isn’t weight loss. It’s your journey toward loving yourself.” So true. I need to learn to love myself again, despite my setbacks. So back in December, as a Christmas present to myself, I invested a bunch of money in some Oprah & Deepak 21-Day Meditation Experience series and have yet to stick to one. So I plan to start fresh on Desire & Destiny. And I plan to do their next free one (Yes, I said free! You should sign up too!), called Find Your Flow that starts on April 14.
So there you have it. I never totally give up. I keep trying. And I have to believe that someday, that damn scale will go back down, my body fat percentage will improve, my problems will resolve themselves, and I will be able to look in the mirror and love the person looking back at me.
So do you have any new goals in mind or new things you are trying?
PS I hope to “see” some of you at #wwchat tonight hosted by Dani from 8-9pm ET!
Weigh In Status: 31.0 lbs up from goal (you can see my entire weight loss log here.