Weekly Weigh In: A Year Since Hitting Goal, Making Changes & De-stressing

I’ve been gone a while again. A few of you noticed! Thanks @CurvyFitGirl, @100Lighter, and @runoneaglewings for the twitter shout-outs to check on me! I’ve been putting in overtime at work and have had a three week sinus infection, so it’s been rough. Yep, full of excuses again.

Truth of the matter is, the biggest reason I’ve been MIA is that my weight moved out of the healthy range the last 4 weeks, weighing in at 146.3, 146.9, 147.2, and 146.4 lbs.

Weight Watchers Healthy Weight Range for 5'4"Source: WeightWatchers.com Healthy Weight Range Chart

And you know what today is? The anniversary of hitting my goal weight. I’m over 20 lbs up from goal. I’m ashamed. I feel like a failure. I no longer feel like a success. *sigh*

I wish this was a happier celebration. I know it’s my party and I can cry if I want to, but actually, I choose not to! I am melancholy, but I choose to be hopeful! This is when I look on the bright side…

  • I’m happy that I even have a “goal-iversary!”
  • I haven’t gained back the remaining 55 lbs I have lost!
  • I don’t look too shabby! (see morning Instagram selfie)
  • I’ve basically maintained this weight for the last month, so maybe I’m not continuing to gain.
  • I’m only 1-2 pounds out of the healthy weight range.
  • The gain may actually be a side effect of new medication I was put on a few months ago.
  • I keep trying.

Try as I may, there are clearly changes that need to be made. I’ve been sticking my head in the sand about it by not blogging about it, not taking advantage of your support, and not taking ownership of it. But now here I am. Change number one.

Tomorrow, I head to my annual physical to see about changing my medication. Not to mention, this also makes me take ownership of this weight gain, and I won’t be able to stick my head in the sand about what my health is looking like either. Change number two.

Desire and Destiny 21-Day Meditation Experience with Oprah and Deepak ChopraAnd then there is the stress and anxiety I have been dealing with lately. I am trying to get a hold of that, but I fear that is also impacting my weight and obviously my health. Luckily, I happened to run across a facebook post from fellow Weight Watcher diva, Suzi Storm, about the free Desire and Destiny 21-Day Meditation Experience with Oprah and Deepak Chopra that started this past Monday. I need to find that desire to be healthy again and make it my destiny! I’m only on Day 2, so I’ll let you know later if it helps! It’s totally free guided meditation, so check it out! Change number three.

The SuperStress SolutionThen last week, I noticed a book on my shelf that I randomly got a few years ago that I never read called, The SuperStress Solution. Hello! I think I need to read that! Ironically, I finally picked it up when I had massive insomnia the other night, and read for two and a half hours! Usually reading makes me sleepy, but this book was speaking to me! I am stressed even though I don’t live a high-powered life, and that’s normal! Thank god! And it’s supposed to help with my anxiety and insomnia! Funny that I still couldn’t sleep for another hour because I was so excited that this book might be able to help me! Again, I just started reading it, but I will be sure to let you know how it goes! Change number four.

Lastly, I’ve said a number of times, maybe my goal weight is unrealistic for me to maintain.  I will probably leave my goal weight as 125 lbs, but I’m not going to beat myself if I never get there again. Ultimately, my goal is to stay in the healthy weight range, and base my success on how I feel and how my health is. Change number five.

So that leads me to this… When things aren’t working, sometimes you need to make some new changes. And those changes might not necessarily be where you think they are. Think outside the box. But always, always keep trying.

Have you guys tried to make changes lately? How is that going for you?

Weigh In Status: 21.4 lbs up from goal (you can see my entire weight loss log here)

  1. marjorie, 14 November, 2013

    I am glad you are back! It was nice to see you at the WWchat last night. :) XO
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  2. Confessions of a Fat Chick, 15 November, 2013

    You’re not a failure at all. You’ve come a long way even with the gain. It sounds like you’re making some good changes. You’re heading in the right direction.

    The big change I’ve made recently is to restart my weight loss journey. So far, so good.
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  3. traci, 17 November, 2013

    I am right there with ya girl! 16 over goal and back at ww

  4. Beth, 10 December, 2013

    I started back to WW for the third time since 2006. I always lose the weight easily, but then I put it all back on just as easily. The first time I started (and thought I was fat) I weighed 159. In 4 months I lost 52 pounds,and ended up at 107. I soon after put it all back on, then lost only 20 pounds before gaining again. September 12th I started attending meetings again, and weighed in at 186.4! So I was 27 pounds over my original start weight! I was so upset with myself, but I think these set backs are what will eventually lead to me getting it right. Through out I’ve learned that if I set my mind to it, I will do it, and I know you will too :) AND as of today I am back to 155, halfway to my goal!

  5. DivaonaDiet, 11 December, 2013

    That is awesome, Beth! Congrats on getting back down! I now say losing it was the easy part, maintaining it is the hard part! And Jennifer Hudson says in my favorite part of my commercial says “We’re human. We fall down. We gain weight. And we get back up.” So we are getting back up!!! I did manage to generally maintain for about a year, but the last 6 months have been the worst. Turns out I was on medication that was likely causing weight gain and I found out my thyroid has dropped immensely! I’ve been on thyroid medication for a few years now, but it has gotten crazy out of range, and it takes a while to regulate it again and make sure I’m on the right dose of medication for that. I hope to post soon about what is going on, so that others that may be struggling realize that some of it (not all of it!) isn’t their fault! But I digress! Thanks so much for stopping by! I wish you so much success on your journey!

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