Well, there you have it. Back up 2.7 lbs, putting me back up 8.9 lbs from goal. Activity level… way down. Tracking… not so much. And I was so over it, I didn’t tweet my usual #WeighInWednesday, I didn’t take the usual snapshot of my Weight Watchers Weight Tracker for this post, and I wasn’t going to post at all, but of course, I have stuff on my mind. I went through some super-emotional relationship crap this past weekend, as some of my twitter friends know, so thank you for your kind words! And although things ended up working out (yay!), boatloads of emotional eating and drinking had already ensued! So, is this a fair weight gain? Absolutely. Do I feel like getting back on track this week? Not really. So yes, I am still struggling.
I suppose this is a normal thing, but I’ve never lost this much weight before! This whole trying to keep 75(-ish) lbs off thing is a whole new animal. And to be honest, no one around me is saying, hey, you look like you’ve gained some weight back. No, they still come up to me and tell me how skinny I am and how good I look. Although I love it, it’s not helping matters. I rationalize that I still look good… well, at least with clothes on!… so maybe I don’t need to track my food, or I can splurge more, or have more wine, or eat that giant cupcake, or workout less, etc. Ummm, ok… I know realistically that’s really stupid, yet it’s like I am an infant… you know, how they push the boundaries with their parents to see what they can get away with… I’m pushing the boundaries with my new-found weight loss to see what I can get away with. I can imagine that’s pretty normal. And well, I’m hoping eventually (soon!) I learn my lesson.
So to follow my own advice, and even though I may not feel like it, I’m gonna keep trying. I’m pretty sure my half-ass attempts at trying again the past few months has kept me from being a solid 25 lbs up from goal at least! So here’s this week’s plan:
#1: I’ve got my second official 5K race on Saturday. In the past, I would have been excited about this, but given my current state of affairs, I am COMPLETELY unprepared for it. I will run nowhere near my time in my first 5K, if I can even run the whole thing, and I’m having to get over it. I just have to keep telling myself just finish it, and by god, just be happy that you are making yourself do it! So I’m hoping that is part of the catalyst to get my act together.
#2: I bought Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30. After a twitter conversation with Jill and Brooke, I was sold. Jill heard from Jillian herself that Ripped was better than 30 Day Shred, and Brooke has done a blog series on her results with both Ripped and 30DS. So I had to trust in my peeps! See, I have not really done much strength training at all, and I really hate how flabby everything on my body is. I figured investing $10 in a DVD was better than investing much more on a gym membership and a personal trainer I will likely end up hating and quit going to, especially given the loss of my mojo (a.k.a. motivation) these days! So the plan is that Jillian will start kicking my butt on Sunday! Why am I putting it off until Sunday? I don’t want to risk being too sore for Saturday’s 5k and possibly not being able to do it at all!
And oh yeah, #3: I’m gonna try to be more cognizant of what I’m eating. I’m not gonna say that I will track everything this week because frankly, I know I won’t. So why set myself up for failure? Let’s just start with trying to get me back into the exercise habit again and see what happens!
So anyone fans of Jillian? What DVDs do you recommend? And how’s your mojo these days?
Weight: 133.9 lbs
Change this week: +2.7 lbs
Total lost: -67.2 lbs
You can also check out my entire weight log here 😉