Remember that hard work I put in last week to get back to maintaining goal? Yeah, I just undid it! I don’t know what the heck happened to me this week! I went crazy. I binged. I overindulged. I gave in to many moments of weakness. I didn’t track. I didn’t run. (Ok, so technically, I finally tracked and ran again yesterday, but that does not make up for a whole 6 other days of madness!) I didn’t even go to any holiday parties, people! I just ate and drank and sat on my butt. This week, I was a lesson in “what not to do.” It was sheer insanity. (And it was not the insanity you may be thinking of!)
I definitely don’t have this “maintenance” thing down. Or maybe I have been right about my “set weight.” Since August, my body just doesn’t seem to want to stay down there near 125. I waiver generally between 125 and 130 almost every week. And is that so bad? Nope. It’s definitely still in a healthy weight range, but damn if I don’t feel bad about maintaining a weight within 2 lbs of my goal!
And here I am considered that I might try to get down to 120 lbs (to lose another 5 lbs!?) come January!?! I bet you are thinking I am crazy now. Well, 1) I wanted a new goal for 2013, 2) I thought maybe aiming for 120 will keep me more toward my 125 goal weight, and 3) Even though I am tiny now, I still have a tummy roll that I hate! Seriously, my measurements put me at a small at my hips, a medium at my bust, and a large at my waist according to most clothing fitting & sizing charts. I mean, what the heck size am I supposed to wear like this!?! Ok, I am a bit of a drama queen. Have no fear, as I have managed to spend tons of money on new clothes! 😉 But I hate my stomach and my waist, and I keep thinking I should do those killer ab exercises. But wait. I hate doing those! So, I am still pondering the feasibility of this goal.
And especially after this week and my inability to stay near my current goal for many weeks on end, oh and the fact that I still love food and I still don’t really love to work out, I am not so sure it’s doable! Those type of people typically don’t have washboard abs! And I wonder, if it really is even necessary. So let’s start with this. Let’s get me through December first! I may have lost 10 lbs last December, but let’s face it, I had tons to lose, and I had just gotten back to business. It’s just not gonna be that easy this December!
Speaking of last December. Did ya see what week it is? 52 weeks is a year! Whoa. Yep, December 7th was the date I decided to recommit myself to the Weight Watchers plan for what I hoped was the last time. And look! It appears it was the last time I had to “re-start!” I may be struggling with a few measly 5 lbs, but it ain’t no 70 lbs of unhealthy girth! This whole “recommitment-versary” has a lot of things swirling around in my head, but for now, let me just reflect on the fact that I made a goal, one that I wasn’t sure I would ever get to, I stuck to it, and I accomplished it. Now that’s a pretty kick-ass anniversary!
Weight: 129.3 lbs
Change this week: +2.5 lbs
Total lost: -71.8 lbs
You can also check out my weight loss progress log
And if you’re wondering, it’s not actually week 52 on Weight Watchers, it’s just week 52 of giving weekly updates since re-committing myself to the program.