Well, had you caught my tweet last week ( —> see it to the right there), you would see that I wasn’t happy about my progress for week 28. Especially since I had been weighing in the 130’s for the majority of the week! But no, weigh in day did not afford me an official record of finally being back in the 130’s for the first time in probably 10 years! And I had a really good week. Only missed my food healthy checks one day by only a few things, got in 6 days of activity totaling 5 hours and 35 minutes and 47 activity points, and used only 4 weekly points, yet there was nothing to show for it on the scale! So it was kind of a blow.
I say “kind of” because I know how hard it’s gonna be now that I am actually in the healthy weight range and so close to goal. Well, about 15 lbs from my actual goal, but that’s still close! And I am even re-evaluating that goal because it may be that it is not maintainable for me. I am in the process of listening to my body and seeing what’s best, and fully expect some weeks of gains or breaking even, so it’s not an entire blow.
So, then this past week was jam-packed with events, leaving me estimating all kinds of food and not having any time to blog or tweet much either! So, with all my estimations of dining out what seems like a gazillion times this week, I ended up blowing through all my weekly points and 43 activity points, which I rarely ever use!, and ended up being 17 points over for the week. Guess what? I lost weight. Makes no sense, right?
I may have said it before, but what I have learned is that there is no direct correlation to what I have done during the week leading up to weigh in day. On weeks I’m “good,” I often don’t fair too well on the scale, and on weeks I’m “bad,” I somehow still drop weight. Given this perspective, the damage I did this week is sure to show up next week! And no people, it’s not the “you’re not eating enough theory” applying for the “good” week. Believe me, I’m eating plenty. Or I just make up for it the following week apparently!
I mean, I was out of town yesterday, and had I skipped the cookie, the peanuts, the chips, and asked that damn omelet lady at the buffet to not use that entire ladle of oil for my omelet (and perhaps didn’t add ham or cheese to it either!), oh and didn’t use that tiny bit of half-and-half in my coffee, I might have broken even points-wise this week. But I was already making sacrifices in just about everything I was eating that day! I asked for only a small amount of cheese in that omelet, I used mustard instead of mayo on my sandwich made with only one half of the focaccia bread and turkey and chicken instead of beef and ham, I only ate 7 chips (when I could have eating the whole bowl!), I chose the dressing with the least amount of fat for my salad even though it wasn’t my favorite, and that small bag of airplane peanuts is only 2 points when I really wanted the cookies! So seriously!
And the night before I was so lucky that my boss chose Seasons 52 for dinner because all their entrees are under 475 calories and it’s a really nice restaurant. (If you haven’t checked this place out, I suggest you find and go to one!) They have all the nutrition on the website, but even though any of the entrees would have been decent, I was making sacrifices! I mean, the steak looked so much better than the scallops, but I chose the scallops because it was healthier than red meat and was 3 points less. I even skipped dessert because even though Seasons 52 desserts may come in a shot glass and be under 475 calories too, they are deceptively killer. The PointsPlus values for all of them come out to be greater than or equal to that of an entire entree… some up to 15 points for a shotglass of dessert! And I had only 1 point left for the day! (Unfortunately, I caved when it came to cookie time the next day after lunch, but at least a sugar cookie is not 15 freaking points!)
And yeah, I could have done better on days I didn’t dine out, but for some reason I decided I was just sick of dieting and ate more than usual Saturday night. Even so, it was still relatively portion-controlled compared to the damage I would have done in the past (like eating 4 or more servings of mashed potatoes with an entire stick of butter on it!). My “splurge” involved high fiber pasta, in which I almost put real butter on it but switched to Brummel & Brown spread with an extra serving of parmesan cheese, flaxseed tortilla chips…but still counting out the 2 servings I had, and still ate some brussels sprouts. A binge involving vegetables?!?… are you kidding me? That never happened before! (Proof I am definitely changing!) And I even had a french dip sandwich this week, and basically just ate the meat and cheese and left the bread and french fries. Ok, I had one fry. But seriously, every meal out I had I didn’t eat something on it! I sacrificed every meal, and still came out points over! And is it sad that I sort of wish I hadn’t sacrificed? I would like to have a few days of abandon where I don’t have to weigh and measure and count and not eat and substitute and… blah, blah, blah! I am so sick of dieting. Really. It sucks. And I know, it’s not dieting, it’s a lifestyle change. I know the rest of my life has to be like this, and it’s still taking some time to get used to. I am burnt out, and for that I think I may be struggling a little bit the next few week.
My goal is to just continue to do my best, and to also live my life and have fun, but not give up entirely. I decided that I would stop double tracking every morsel I eat in both weight watchers and the fitbit dashboard. It’s almost become down right obsessive spending too much time weighing exactly everything that goes in my mouth and writing it down and entering nutrition information in two places, and then feeling guilty because fitbit tells me I didn’t burn enough calories running and walking all day to even eat 1200 calories that day when I still have points left! That’s just not good… it’s just not healthy, and being healthy is the ultimate goal, right?!
Ok, so after all that bitching and moaning, I forgot there is still some good news here to report! I now have an official weigh-in record in the 130’s!!! Woo hoo! So here’s to having an over-point week with a weight loss!
Weight: 139.2 lbs
Change this week: -1.1 lbs
Total lost: -61.9 lbs
You can also check all my weight loss progress logs here 😉
And if you’re wondering, it’s not actually week 29 on Weight Watchers, it’s just week 29 of giving weekly updates since re-committing myself to the program.