That’s right. Did you read that? 5o. pounds. gone.
I cannot believe it. I really and truly am proud of myself deep down inside, but I think I might be in some sort of state of shock that I have lost that much. For some reason, it doesn’t feel like it could be that much, and I was actually somewhat hesitant to “announce it to the world” because I greatly fear that next week I will gain it back.
One would think that with me being all MIA lately, that I was working hard on this for the last 3 weeks, but I’ve been busy having a social life again and helping a friend in a time of crisis, and all of this involved less activity and more eating and drinking. In fact, way back in week 19, I didn’t have a loss or a gain, and had actually worked pretty hard and was on point that week and everything. I had written up this long post complaining about it and how I was probably starting a plateau, and now here I am. I still just can’t believe it!!!
In fact this week, I can’t even tell you that I busted ass at all this week. I had an off week! I ended up 9 points over, fitbit’s food log told me I was over my 1000 calorie deficit goal almost every day, I earned less activity points than I have been, and had lots of food and drinks (like margaritas and sangrias… oh the points!!!) that I had to estimate. I just don’t believe that I possibly could have lost 2.6 lbs this week!
Maybe my body is making up for the week with no loss? Maybe I underestimated my activity points and over estimated my food and drinks at social events? Maybe it’s not going to show up until next week? Maybe my scale broken?!? And maybe it’s because my doctor changed my blood pressure medication from a combo beta-blocker/diuretic to just a diuretic (a.k.a. water pill) at a higher dose this week, so that made me lose water weight?
Maybe I just underestimate myself entirely? I seriously weighed myself several times this morning because I just didn’t believe that I had actually lost any weight this week. I am really proud of my pretty teal bouncy 50 lb star up there, but I feel like I don’t deserve it when I was just not that good this week! And I feel like it’s going to show up next week, and then it’s no longer going to be 50 lbs.
So, let me give myself a little self-talk here. 1) Shut up, and be proud!!! Even if it goes back to something like 48 lbs total, that is still almost 50, and that is freaking amazing, so get over it! 2) You didn’t blow your whole week. You tracked everything, and Monday and Tuesday you made sure you were on point and you even ran for 15 minutes on 4.3 MPH on Monday to get to your 10,000 steps… something you have NEVER done before!
Yep, so that’s also another super-cool thing that happened. I had to walk on my treadmill on Monday night (instead of my usual outdoor walk) because it was after 9:30pm before I had time. Since I could get away with just wearing my sports bra and shorts, sweat like a pig, and make funky noises… all required for me to run!… in the privacy of my own home, I thought I would try to add a little. I think I ran the first 10 minutes straight of my walk, and I couldn’t believe it! I am just amazed at how much more in shape I am! Plus I could get to my 10,000 steps in a shorter amount of time! So the plan was to tgry to get in some more running on Tuesday night. And then tragedy struck.
I was watching The Biggest Loser finale last night, and had to get on the treadmill again, and watching them, I wanted to run even more! But about 7 minutes into it, my hip muscle became very painful and then I couldn’t hardly even walk. Oy. Now I remember why I don’t run. I inevitably pull something then I am out of commission physically and can’t do anything at all for a few days. So, YAY I ran! BOO, I’m injured. And yes, add that to the list of fears of why I think I will gain my loss back next week!
So as I start out this new week, I hope to take it in stride, and do my best to eat right even though my physical activity will be limited. (Hell, I should enjoy not having to do physically activity, right!?!) And just be happy about how far I’ve come!!! I just need to remember, that no matter what happens, I have lost 50 freaking pounds as of today. And that is one hell of an accomplishment.
Weight: 150.2 lbs
Change this week: -2.6 lbs
Total lost: -50.9 lbs
You can also check all my progress 😉
And if you’re wondering, it’s not actually week 21 on Weight Watchers, it’s just week 21 of giving weekly updates since re-committing myself to the program.