So almost a year since I attempted to restart this here blog…. and well, it’s still sitting here… all half-assed with test widget areas and no posts! And to be quite honestly, here I am… still sitting here… on a couch or in my office chair, and rarely on a diet!
Soooooooooooo, yeah, I think it is time. I am actually hoping (fingers crossed tightly!) it’s time! I’ve heard a lot of people say that you have to be “ready.” I am not sure if I ever will be, though. I keep hoping this is the time, and then there I am a few days later annoyed that my skinny friend can eat anything she wants, and I am relegated to food that just does not thrill me. And then I go and get some fast food or gorge on a few too many servings of mashed potatoes with enough butter melted on the top to even make Paula Deen freak out! And then I think, well Paula Deen isn’t any smaller than me, and she seems happy! Why can’t I be fat and happy? Ahh, I fail to realize that she also works her ass off and has millions of dollars. It’s apples to oranges, girl. And oh yeah, you have health problems, and every doctor keeps telling you that you need to lose weight. Uhg. Yeah, I am really good at avoiding that whole area of my life.
Oh do I miss the days when I was a picky eater, I didn’t eat much food, and I never had to exercise. I didn’t know how lucky I had it! I should have known my fate was sealed by just looking at the gene pool I come from! I was a skinny girl, but dieted on and off to be skinny again in my 20’s, and now I am a skinny girl stuck in a fat girl’s body, and I want out!
So, I am again making another attempt to diet, or well really, make a lifestyle change, so please put some happy thoughts out into the universe that this here diva can make her way back to the healthy girl she once was, for real this time!!! I need all the help I can get, people! 😉 And I hope to officially re-launch my “journey” and fix up this blog ASAP!