Confession time. After being on track the whole week before and losing only 0.2 lbs, and then waking up on Thursday only to find that I had even gained that 0.2 lbs back, I lost it! I gave up. For the trillionth time. We were going to the mountains for the weekend, and by the end of the day Thursday, I said “Eff it. It’s a vacation. I’m eating what I want starting now.” I did just that, and I stopped tracking the whole rest of the week.
It’s only week 2 of, well, what was supposed to be me getting back on track, but I gave up completely for 6 out of 7 days! I know that being pissed that I hadn’t lost weight when I did track and being on vacation was no excuse. But boy do I give in easily these days, and for long periods of time.
So I gained weight. Duh! And I’m full of regret. Like many mornings, I woke up saying, “Alexis. You can do this.” And after a long, emotional day, all I wanted to do was come home and comfort myself with junky food and few drinks. It was all I could do to not let myself do that. I finally forced myself to eat on plan. I’m happy to report, it’s almost 9:30pm, I am done with my points for the day, and although I’m still in a pretty crappy mood, I am full, I did my best, and I am proud of myself for bucking up and making myself do what I need to do.
A big shout out to my girls Kelly and Sarah for giving me some moral support earlier today on twitter. After our convo, I realized that I can’t force when my mojo comes back, and that I just need to keep trying, and focus for now on tracking for that day, and not worry about future days or working out for now. Create this one habit again first, then add more in. Well, at least that’s the plan for now! How’s everyone else doing?
Highest Weight: 201.1 lbs
Current Weight: 165.7 lbs
Change Since Last Weigh In: +1.1 lbs
Total Lost: -35.4 lbs
(you can see my entire weight loss log here.)